We had just moved and were attending a new church. Everything was unfamiliar…different. And then in the middle of worship, between songs, in a moment when we were doing nothing productive, my heart heard God whisper, “It’s going to be okay.” And on that day, in that moment those words were enough.
This morning I’m reminded of how much I need to remember those words, “It’s going to be okay.”
The problem is that hearing the whisper of God requires space. And I don’t like space. I like distraction.
When I stop in space, when I pause in those moments between productivity, when I become silent, when I stand still, I become all too aware of how I am actually doing.
And I don’t want to know how I’m doing. I don’t want to be reminded of my failures and shortcomings and, dare I say it, sin. I don’t want to think about, much less own, the ways I’ve failed those I love. It seems that when I stop in space I realize that I am not okay.
I also realize there is much in my world over which I have NO CONTROL and that is NOT okay. I don’t like that. And so I prefer to stay busy. Even when I am quiet and still on the outside, I stay busy in my head.
Distraction is my best friend.
But here is my problem.
It seems that if I am going to hear the Holy Spirit speak, I have to muster up the courage to remain in those in between spaces… to listen…to refuse to move on the next thing… and ASSESS the facts whatever they may be.
Hearing God always starts with coming to him just as I am. No pretending.
And then I am invited to EXPRESS how I feel about these facts. I’m serious! The Creator if the Universe wants me to ASSESS the facts of my life both the good and the bad AND to then EXPRESS how I feel about my current reality and experiences. To Him! (Read the Psalms:-)
Here’s the truth. The good times don’t last and the bad times keep happening. And this is not okay.
And so I practice and am learning how to REST in the gaps and spaces of my life.
I practice and am learning how to ASSESS the facts making up my current reality.
I practice and am learning how to EXPRESS to God how I feel about my current reality.
And then I REST… I wait… with anticipation… I listen…with expectation.
And more often than not these days I hear Him whisper, “It’s going to be okay.”
And so far, it has been.
Over and out.